Mantras

Mantras... sayings... those little phrases you might spout without thinking.

They make you feel better, get you through the hard times, annoy the monkies out of people you have said them to too many times.

Im not talking about the "Clean your room"s

or even the "I love you"s

but those little globules of wordyness.. you know the ones.

Well theres one me and my mentee have grown to love. We use it often, not because its glib, but because it applies so often.

It's simple. It's clear. It is...

Man the fuck up.

Im not saying that this only applies to men, but today, they are who it is aimed at.
Im talking about those men who pride themselves on their Masculinity. Their Manliness. Their being powerful, strong, capable, in control, masterly, messianic...
These are the ones, who in a crunch, turn into lily livered little cowards. This annoys me. As a woman, I find we put up with a lot. Men as described above. Theres no need for them to put into words their belief that they are better in some undefinable way than any woman. we put up with this because those we love, love them. They stand in a room, not believeing, not thinking, but KNOWING all women are lower, and presumably, horrendously attracted to them.

I know im sounding bitchy here. but I do not hate all men. I hate this particular kind of man. Who when realising they have a difficult decision to make, choose the easiest possible way out for themselves, not caring, probably not even realising how hurtful they are being.

THESE MEN ARE COWARDS

They are exactly the opposite of that which they believe themselves to be.

Deep down I hope they know how cowardly and pathetic they are. But I doubt they do.

These are the men who need to man the fuck up. Be human. Actually behave in a manner that is at very least respectful to those who have given up their time, lives, and love to you.

Hayfever and other annoyances

Yes folks.. Its hayfever time.

I love trees. They dont seem to love me. Hell im not even sure its tree pollen im most allergic to. Could be that bastad grass.

So im doing my scratchy throat with tongue thing in my sleep. So I wake up with a throat on the verge of tasting bloody.

Fun eh?

Iv got potential news, but dont want to jinx it. *knocks on several pieces of wood*

Theres things Im thinking of trying, but the deadlines and my general style and laziness probably mean they arent compatible. That and Im a big chicken. Today I shall mostly be being annoyed at wimbledon taking over the tv.

not so interesting..

apple ogies.

its been a BAD DAY please dont take my picture...

I say bad day.
Started with a bad night.
Bad night on the phones.
Unpleasant. Heartwrenching. Stomach churning. Maddening.

pick your favourite

Nasty people. People are stupid, nasty, vindictive.

Not sounding jaded am I?

Called back a job I didnt get - yes another one - for some feedback

Out of 9 applicants, only I didnt have any experience working in a library.

Out of 9 applicants for this part time role, 5 people had the degree in working in libraryness.

8 years of using academic libraries and a lifetime of ordinary ones just doesnt cut it.
The ability to do the job is outmatched by any experience. But how to get experience?

Being truthful apparently not a big plus point. Listening also not an important skill for interviewers...
Yes, I said that my dizziness has been a problem with reading in the past.
Did I explain that I had worked around that, using computer programmes that I can demonstrate to others with reading difficulties, not only to read for pleasure but to complete a frikkin research based history degree? Yes.
Did I say that I do not read for pleasure now? That I cant read actual books? No.
Did I say that I do read and list a number of texts, including those by my lovely authory friends? YES I BLOODY DID.

Im pissed off.

Dont not give me a job because you havent listened to what Ive said.